Best Dayz Of my Life. Part 3: The Medicals And The Final Moments..

My stay at varansi and those 5 days during SSB were not only the most beautiful days of my life but also they taught me some thing which I still treasure and I will treasure for the rest of my life....

Sometimes we keep on working hard but lots and lots of struggles come in our way. Then there are times when our faith on god almighty starts shaking. But in reality, inspite of numerous struggles our god will never ever leave us alone. And reward is only meant for hard work... no short cuts. If we apply for a short cut then we deserve no right to complain to god. After getting recommended, I realised how it feels when one gets reward of one's hard work. I also tasted the similar sweet fruit.

Also, I realised time is not the foundation for the strenghth of any relation. The bond I shared with Megha and Aniketa was installed within five days but it continued to blossom thereafter. I became more liable to the 'hurdles of life'. I felt the power of prayer.
Really, An unforgettable time, the most valuable one, the most precious one!!
One step was over and two more steps(medical and the merit list) were yet to be completed to achieve my dream for which I had craved since chidhood..

After going through the beautiful and best days which were only and only mine I came back to home..not forgetting to mention that I caught Eye-Flu :-(.. (I was looking like a chinese or japanese coz size of my eyes darstically reduced..) During my journey, in the train, my co-passenger was a lady from dehradun and my god!! she was so so so talkative (all mixture of sensibles and non-sense but most of the time non-sense ) that at the end of the day my ears started showing signals-- OVER FUNCTIONING.. NEED REST.
Anyways I reached home back safely with my safe ears but with japanese or chinese eyes. After reaching home, I came to know that I was supposed to leave for delhi just after 1 day coz I got a call from that NIIT guy (whom I have mentioned in the first post of my blog)..

I just managed to get well with  my eye-flu somewhat so much so that I was looking like an Indian. I reached Delhi to meet that NIIT guy and and and for my medicals..( My next step towards my dream.... :-))
My medical was to begin from 4th oct but I reached Delhi on 30th on the invitation of NIIT guy.

And from that day onwards till my last day of stay in Delhi I encountered those situations where I was supposed to implement whatever I had learnt during my SSB.... Wasn't it strange?? Both the SSB and the medicals were a part of the way to reach airforce.. Still SSB was something I would never ever like to forget and Medical was something which I would never like to recall.....

When I reached NIIT, those so called unproffessional people told me "Due to your inability to give joining on 21st september you are among the list of 'uncertain candidates'."
What A Nonsnese!! This was what that came out of my mind when I listened to that B*****D NIIT guy. Even not only this, but even more than this.... That day I came to know how rich my abusive vocab is!! The reason being that he could have told this on phone also.... Totally an unproffessional behaviour!! Damn B*****D..  He could have told it on phone even then why the hell he called me there?? Till today I could not find the reason to this...

After 3 days my medical began... It was really like a hell. Though hell but important because it was alot significant for me to clear it to get into the Air Force.
With my medicals, a new thing began in new delhi to which whole country was watching-- Commonwealth Games 2010. I remember that time I saw a new and a more organized delhi.. not even the traffic but the lanes, security and everything was organized to its best. And also it was really interesting to see the stadiums, buses full of players and foreign delegates everytime I would move out.
Well, coming back to my medical journey!!!

For medicals, I stayed at Subroto Park.. Entirely an Air force area. With me, only jahnavi was there from my batch. I didn't know why but I was not enjoying my medicals though I wanted to. I wanted to escape from it not because they were tough or I was afraid of the failure but there was something else that was frightening me.. I wanted to move out of delhi as soon as possible..

I still remember our medical would start at 7.30 am to last till 3.30 pm daily.. and more than half of the day all medical candidates would spent in 'Waiting Lobby' watchinag all the swimming and wrestling competetions at the commonwealth.... The very first day the thing happened I was afraid of - I was underweight. Only 4 days were ahead in conference and I was about 2 kg underweight.. Well readers, 2 kg appears to be a small number but these air force guys are very particular specially about small things.
For all 5 days I and other candidates were tested from head to toe.. there were lots and lots of tests..it was like a series of never-ending tests.... I really hated it literally.
Not only this but I also hated the food of the mess.. The more it was good at varanasi, the more it was bad at Delhi. Instead of compensating my underweight, I got afraid of losing it more due to the bad food served there in the mess.

But the thing that I loved during my stay in Delhi was my visit to India Gate. I went there on 3rd or 4th day with jahnavi and deepu. First time when I had a close view at the war memorial- INDIA GATE. No doubt, I felt a lot of patriotism running in my blood that time.. Moreover the weather..oooooooohhhh....

Just before 3 days of my conference, I got a call from Dell- An interview call from Dell. And just look at kanha's way- he is so smart..he fixed the interview date as 8th of october.. and that was the day of my medical conference. Wasn't it strange?? When I was going for SSB, NIIT came and now during the medicals, Dell came. Was it a coincidence?? Or was kanha trying to say something?? Was I unable to understand his signals?? Was kanha trying to stop me from................?? Well, My conference was important for me so I missed the interview at dell.

Then came the day of 8th october-- The final day of medical conference. On the final day, I was again checked for my weight and yuuuhhhoooo, I escaped. Now I was afraid of carrying elbow angle and the haemoglobin.. These two scenarios are such when permanent rejection is given in Air Force.. I was so tensed and nervous... praying, praying, praying.
When the final moment came I entered the room of medical board president to listen to his single sentence- either You Are Fit OR You Are Unfit... I entered, greeted the president and took my seat. The president started studying my file.......

I was stable at a place.....

My fingers tightly clutched.......

Ears wide open coz this time deepu was not with me to wake me up........

Eyes fixed at the president..........

And then President closed my file.....

Looked towards me and told me the RESULT.....

And and and whatever he told, it was enough to bring moisture to my eyes.. enough to left me sobbing for the next few moments.....

I moved out of the room with tears in my eyes, I moved towards jahnavi and hugged her and then I shouted-- "yyyyuuuuuhhhhhooooooo jahnavi.. I did it.. I cleared my medicals.. I am fit.. I am fit .. I am fit.." and my tears of happiness continued to find their way out of my eyes.

In my happiness, I even forgot that I was standing outside the president's room....

One more obstacle was over. Now only merit list was left and I had full faith on my kanha that he would not pull me back after sending me so close to my dream.

After medical I came home and started counting days for merit list to come.

AFTER 2 MONTHS

One by one days passed on and the day came for which I and few of my besties were waiting so eagerly.. The day of merit list.. 8th of december.. 2 months that passed was not a small period of time.. not atleast for me. Things never go as planned.. this was one of the thing that I learnt during this tenure.
Anyways merit list came and deepu told me on phone about its 'Grand Arrival'.
I was over desperate to know my rank in the list. But what a bad coincidence that my system chose 8th of december to go bad.. Huh..
Well,,, coincidences always chose a dramatic time and a dramatic way to enter into my life.. And this thing simply fascinates me!! :-)

I called one of my friends and asked him if he could check my rank in the merit list.
Heart was pounding in and out!!
Waiting for his call and for the result 1 hour passed... and after 1 hour I got his call.
" Haan... what is my rank?? jaldi tell...plzzzzz"
"Wait wait.... what is your official DOB"?
"its dec 2 1988.... my name is there na?"
"oye mam.. your DOB is here and so is your name.. Mansi Jain.. with 22nd rank"

wooohhh... The suspense was out... My hard work in the SSB, endurance in Medicals and my stamina in all ups and downs in the previous 2 months ended with 22nd AIR in 50th SSC Technical (women) Course of AIR FORCE.. For days, months, years I waited for the day for my name to appear where it was...
But Still this was what I spoke after listening to my result..

"well,, its good,,, quite a sort of achievement for me.. but I am not going to celebrate it.. Coz after all, I am not going to join Air Force... I will not join it"

I still don't know whether  really it was that much easy for me to leave that thing I was so passionate about. No.. It was not!! I still could not make it out whether I did a right thing or I did a grave mistake.... but whatever.. Things never go as planned.. Time is the biggest director and we are only small puppets who dance on its tunes.....

My journey to air force is and will always be a very special for me and very close to my heart.. Still, it brings smile and tears out of me... but anyways more is still there to come...

This post I have written while stealing some time out of the breaks of my training session.. Comments are invited..  And next will not be a story or narration but something straight from the heart!!
Air Force was not just a job for me but it was something that I would never be able to justify in words...
Still trying to bring it out of the heart in the form of words....